My Greatest Source of Shame

This is my greatest secret. At least, it’s my greatest secret under my pen name. (TW: suicidality, mental illness.) I’ve tested the waters a couple times this year, but I’ve never come right out and said it. Ask me in person and I’ll tell you about it. For years, though, I’d explain all of it … Continue reading My Greatest Source of Shame

On Spirituality

In this great effort to share vulnerably and authentically, I’m realizing there’s a lot I’ve taught myself to not even consider sharing in any public capacity. And now, I’m not sure where the line is. Once upon a time I was so religiously Christian that I thought the best way I could help anyone and … Continue reading On Spirituality

That’s Why I’m So Weird!

A moment of depression led to a realization about myself that reframes my perspective on myself, both looking back and toward the future. What was it I said? Something like, “How are you supposed to feel like you’re alive if it feels like the only good things that change in your life are by your … Continue reading That’s Why I’m So Weird!

Recovering My Happily Ever After

When I was eighteen I wrote a self-insert Beauty and the Beast retelling with the premise, “What if the prince had accepted the enchantress’s rose? And what if they were true loves?” (And I gender-swapped them.) I felt I was a hopeless romantic, and at that age I was starting to feel like the world … Continue reading Recovering My Happily Ever After

Creating The Life I Want

All this time I thought intentionality had to be rigid. Schedules, routines, habits, patterns that you lock into your life. I've tried time and time again to bring rigidity into my day-to-day, thinking that if I just get the right patterns going I would solve all my life's problems: eating healthy and exercising, maintaining regular … Continue reading Creating The Life I Want

Still Figuring Crap Out

I had so many ideas in June. None of them happened. Life fell apart. Somehow in the 3.5 months since then I have a new boyfriend, a new car, a new place of residence, a new job... because everything that was going on back then didn't pan out. I continue to come up with new … Continue reading Still Figuring Crap Out

New Year, New Me?

Hey guys! It's been a while. I'm slowly starting to get back into writing. In the last couple weeks I've written 2.5 songs, a 4400 word short story, and a short piece of prose. In February I attended Superstars Writing Seminar in Colorado Springs and subsequently gained a mentor in James A. Owen. My mind … Continue reading New Year, New Me?

The Spiritual Side of My Writing Career

...and other exciting things! First of all, if you're not following my Facebook page, you're missing out! I've been updating it a lot more often, and I do a mental health check-in every day, and I give a writing update when that's relevant. I aim for 2pm EST. I'd love to hear from you there! … Continue reading The Spiritual Side of My Writing Career

Postpartum Depression

I feel like I've fallen completely off the map and then some. Here's a quick recap, though I'll be skipping a lot: three months ago my daughter was born. I've had health issues that I'm working on getting diagnosed. I was put in the hospital after being suicidal and released from the day program the … Continue reading Postpartum Depression